Posted by scribble'ntweak on June 22, 2005, at 9:09:53
In reply to Re: Just got out of hospital » scribble'ntweak, posted by Sonya on June 22, 2005, at 7:07:46
Thank you all for answering my post.
Ed- It is interesting to hear that it is common to mistake schiz. for bi polar. Looking back I can now see where the Drs went wrong in their diagnosis. But, I feel like thie diagnosis of bi polar hit the nail on the head. I never felt schizophrenic, whatever that means.
Linkadge- I have hallucinated different thinks. Some of the stranger ones were floaoting poppies, and an elf walking on a wall. I waved my arm under the poppies and they had no stems. The elf had pointy jingle bell shoes that I could here jingeling. I also saw a skinny alien doing cartwheels across my yard. It's not the visual hallucinations that bother me so much as the paranoia. When I am at a low I am afraid to open the window blinds or go out side. At a high I think my friends are trying to kill me, or that they want me dead.
Phillipa- Thank You for your support, and for answering my post. People are afraid of mental illness, like you say. It makes you feel very lonely and misunderstood. I feel like no one will ever be able to understand me, but I guess noone ever really understands anyone anyway. These thoughts are what lead to feeling worthless and then suicidal. Don't worry, I am watching myself closely. I have that ability.
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