Posted by linkadge on April 30, 2005, at 22:51:35
In reply to Mood Volatility. Why am I different?, posted by D minor on April 30, 2005, at 22:39:26
I never considered myself bipolar but I have been diagnosed as such a few times.
Somtimes, I will go from laughing my head off with friends to thinking about suicide an hour or two later.
The problem is that in each state, the memory of all other states doesn't exits. The way I currently feel seems like it has been there for eternity.
Sorry for talking about myself, but I definately feel that my condition is a result of taking antidepressants.
I feel I have been kindled in some way. Its like even when I'm "better" the slightest reminder of a past failure etc will immediately make me "want out" in a deep and profound way.
It scares me that it doesn't scare me.
And it worries me that I'm not worried about it.
Linkadge
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