Posted by Racer on April 30, 2005, at 10:51:58
Even with upping the Wellbutrin XL to 300mg, I'm depressed again. The last few days have found me sitting around, on the edge of tears all day long.
And, being depressed, I don't want to call the doctor, I don't want to consider trying a different med, etc. I'm afraid that a new AD will cause weight gain, since basically all of them have for me so far. I'm afraid that I'll be too sedated by anything that works for me, which has also been my experience so far. Etc. I'm in that "it's not worth it, because it's just going to get worse, I'd rather just sit here and stare at the walls and wait 'til I die" place. It's not fun. (Although, for anyone who remembers the song, it might be better if I could get to my turntable and play "Kerosene" by Big Black a few times...)
I guess I'm hoping taht someone out there can suggest something that I haven't thought of yet, or haven't tried yet. That, of course, will be difficult.
Hell, I don't have it in me to list everything I've tried s ofar. All the SSRIs, two TCAs, etc. My blood pressure can't handle the TCAs, and I'm so damned fat now I can't stand the thought of taking something that will cause weight gain.
So, any useful suggestions? Sorry for being so damned negative. It's par for the course, but I hate it when I hear it in what I write.
poster:Racer
thread:491838
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