Posted by Maxime on April 13, 2005, at 19:57:05
In reply to Update from my appointment: I am so confused, posted by Spriggy on April 13, 2005, at 16:33:46
I am sorry that happened. You know that I know how it feels. You really should read that book I mentioned, The Thyroid Solution. It talks about how no one knows what comes first ... the mental disorder or the thyroid disorder. Stress and anxiety can do so much to your mind and body. You have been dealing with a sick father which is VERY stressful. I have also been there. My father was dying, I was writing my Masters thesis, I was working full time, I weighed 70 pounds, I lived 2000 miles away from my family. I went into hospital. Somehow I managed to write a 250 pages thesis, defend it and graduate. How I managed to do it I have no idea. But when it was over I fell apart.
Maybe your system has gone haywire from all the stress. It's so hard to know.
But the problem with mental illness is that it is not visible. If you had cancer people would be asking how you are doing, they would be understanding. The same with a broken leg. There is physical proof that something is wrong. But with psych dx, you are just a head case. Even friends, family and co-workers don't understand ... because they can't see it.
Wouldn't it be nice if someone said "Gee Spriggy, your brain looks kinda bipolared or something. Are you doing okay? Can I sign your skull?".
Hang in there. At least you are blessed with a support system. Until the doctors get their act together, use your support system.
I'm thinking of you. Sorry I rambled so much.
Maxi
> We drove 40 minutes to have the endo look at me and say, " I really don't see anything wrong with your test results. Your TSH is normal, your thyroid feels just fine. The growth is just a swollen lymph gland."
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> He was nice but obviously doesn't think there is any issue. He is running some more blood test to check my white/red count, liver enzymes, calcium and such but he said he felt this was likely more a reaction to stress and anxiety than anything.
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> So maxime.. move over and let me join your "frustrated" club.
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> I literally sat in the parking lot sobbing in the car.. Then I started laughing (which confused my husband). I said, " Do you realize I am sitting outside the doctor office crying because he says NOTHING is wrong??" Then he cracked up too.
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> It is ridiculous to want something wrong physically, but I guess I just thought that would explain things more thoroughly.
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> I guess I just have to wait on the rest of the test (which I am sure will be just fine) and then it's back to square one.. or actually back to hearing " bipolar 2."
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> I guess I just can't grasp that a mental disorder could possibly create all these phyiscal symptoms but I suppose I am wrong.
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> It's just frustrating frankly. I would rather have any diagnosis than bipolar (because of it's role in my family history).
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> Thanks for all your input and help lately guys. You are the best.
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