Posted by Maxime on April 4, 2005, at 0:00:00
In reply to Re: Dexedrine is making me sleepy???? » Maxime, posted by Racer on April 3, 2005, at 22:40:42
Racer, I think you are right. I am depleted. I have had the worse week possible.
I haven't posted about this, but I witnessed the aftermath of a suicide on Thursday. A man in his 30's jumped from the top floor of a shopping centre ... about six floors. I arrived about 5 minutes after it happened. I didn't mean to look. I didn't know what was going on. But I saw him. Face down. Motionless. And what looked like jello surrounding his head. If he wasn't dead physically, he was brain dead. People were throwing up around me. I wanted to do the same. I just walked away like a zombie. I can't get the image out of my head. Before I walked away a voice inside my head whispered "I wish it was me".
I am going back to plan I had last week. I am just going to get on a bus and go somewhere. Anywhere. Screw everything.
I'm wasted.
Maxime
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