Posted by Spriggy on April 1, 2005, at 21:42:51
Well, I got home this afternoon after spending 4 days with Mickey and Minnie (Disneyland).
We couldn't have asked for better weather- it was in the 80's and sunny (just beautiful).
I, on the otherhand, had a very horrific time mentally/physically.
Before I left, I called to get my insulin results and the receptionist informed me my results were "normal."
So being my blonde self, I believed that and figured, " well, if I'm normal then I can eat however I want now and give up on this no sugar crap."
SOOOO...we go on vacation and indulge in Krispy kremes, coke, Dr. Pepper, Peanut M & M's, etc.. etc..
So the entire time, my anxiety was at an ALL Time high. I mean I literally was shaking all over (tremors!), wigging out (which at least some of this time I was literally in TOON TOWN), and feeling so sick (flu like).
I even had a full blown panic attack on the Pacific Coast Highway. I am freaking out in the car, begging my husbadn to rush me to the hospital because I am convinced I am dying and my throat is swelling shut. (yeah VERY logical!).
Anyway, there are moments when I push myself and pretend SOOOO hard for my son so I can watch him have fun but I felt horrible the entire time. I was medicating myself BIG time just to make it through Disneyland (Like taking my sleeping meds- RESTORIL- during the day with my Klonopin).
Good piece of advice if you have anxiety-- stay away from large amusement parks, full of thousands of people, some dressed up like animals, and waiting in 40 minute rides. Not to mention the fact that I was adding adrenaline to my body from all the stinkin' rides I Rode.
Anyway, other than that.. it was fun. LOL
SOOO.... here's the real kicker- I could not figure out why I was doing SOOO horribly while we were there. I mean there were no real worries; no laundry, no cooking, dishes, etc.. I should've been BETTER. My diet never occurred to me becuase the receptionist informed it was "normal."WA HA HA.
I get home today and have a letter in my mail from my doctor with my lab results. VOILA. Lo and behold, nothing was "normal" at all about my glucose test.
My fasting number was 67, I drank a ton of that nasty sugery stuff and 1 hour my number was 72, and 2 hours later it was 74.
So my doctor wrote a note, " Blood fasting levels low, levels should have risen much higher than they have. We need to discuss this blood sugar issue asap. See me this week."
So here I am thinking I'm okay and all along, I guzzling the sugar like it's a car needing gasoline. NO wonder I wigged out so badly while gone.
Anyway, now my doctor is thinking also ( i have this "knot" on the outside of my throat that is growing) that it likely my thyroid being overactive. This could be the problem with my blood sugar as well.
So.. I will see the endocronologist asap (he is out of town until thursday) so hopefully Friday.
BUT, this "knot" is growing and I am sometimes finding it hard to swallow and all along I thought it was my anxiety. Lo and behold, once again, I have this "THING" growing and likely causing the swallowing problems.
All this time I have been told I had anxiety disorder, bipolar 2, yadda yadda yadda, and now my doctor says, " I think we may need to back away from the psych diagnosis until we can figure out all these physical problems."
Is this nuts or what???
Just thought I'd tell you all I'm back and share my vacation with you! Hope you didn't miss me too much.PS. I'm still taking the Lamictal. I'm up to 12.5 a day now. In 3 days will move up to 25 mg's but so far, I haven't seen any improvement.
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