Posted by hffcookie on March 30, 2005, at 12:00:57
Hi everyone
I haven't posted my last 2 days of "abilify diary' because i have been outside gardening and enjoying the spring weather. I haven't enjoyed gardening, one of my most favorite past times, the last three years. So, that should tell you a little bit about how the abilify is working.
On day 5 I woke up and literally felt like something was a little different. I didn't realize what it was until I stepped outside and thought "I should plant some pansies." Then i realized that i woke up without any depression for the first time in three years. Sure, i would say "i should plant pansies" at other times in my depression, but that usually was combined with "but i know i am not going to" or "i wish i could," and that always made me feel like a guilty sort of loser. So i went out without any anxiety, rather i had and have been feeling pleasure in doing these things again! I cannot tell you how the return of pleasureable reward and emotion has been these last two days. I have cried, but it was because i realized it had been so long since i had felt like this, so it was a good cry.
Anyway, the one thing that makes me think that Abilify really is my "wonder drug" is that I don't feel overly or inappropriately happy, and i don't feel overly or inappropriately sad. All of this with only a dry mouth and a headache or two (which i think was a sinus/allergy/spring planting thing anyway).
I know we all have very different responses to our meds and what works for me may not nec. work for you but if you were thinking about augmenting your meds to treat an especially resistant depression with abilify, you may give it a try. the only question I have is that my doc told me that i will only use this for 3 months...well, i have found a therapist (different board for that one) so hopefully, now that i am able to get something out of therapy, it may be ok to stop the abilify in a few months. well, that's all. thanks you all for the support. a couple of weeks ago i was at my lowest low and this board and the members gave me an immeasureable amount of comfort so thanks again. I am going to go to the zoo with my husband who has the week off! Be well everyone.
Holly
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