Posted by hffcookie on March 28, 2005, at 0:22:01
In reply to my diary on abilify - I hope it helps someone!, posted by hffcookie on March 26, 2005, at 17:19:46
Hello everyone
First of all I want to apologige to Kara for the bazaar post that zuzu wrote in response to this thread. The motivation question was a good one because, not only did i want to see some "mood lift" from this abilify, but i wanted to feel good enough to want to do things again, feel a pleasureable response to all of the things i used to enjoy. Well, it does seem that the abilify has helped my depression and consequently i have been up and about and doing substantially more than i had been - however one thing remains troublesome to me and that is i still do not seem to enjoy the activities i previously enjoyed. I don't know, maybe I was expecting abilify to be more of a "wonder drug" than it is, or maybe i need more time, or maybe this is as "happy" as i am going to be through drug therapy alone and it is time to turn to cognitive and interpersonal therapy to find those lost pleasures....lordie, who knows. I do know that I have not cried once since i started taking this, even when i thought of painful subjects that normally made me sad... and i don't know if it is just coincidence but my sex drive continues to make some sort of return and that is good...
i've read "the new mood therapy" by David Bearn (i apol. for spelling wrong?) and his opinion on meds seems to be that unless you find your mood markedly improved, having given the drugs a few weeks to take effect, you should increase the dose or move on and try something else. he also mentions how his patients, when experiencing this "lifting" of their depressions, are so happy to be without their previous burden they seem delighted...i guess the thing is that it seems that i am hoping to find, or feel, a truly noticeable response to my meds. I want to not be "just ok" but maybe even happy. Is that silly? Maybe it's better not to be happy for no reason, probably....but, well, i'm not even sure.
I know this has been a bit of a long babbling mess but i wanted to keep anyone and everyone updated. no nausea, still lots of thirst, and sadly, i think my connection between the abilify "enhancing" my adderall was not valid...today i went through 60 mg's which is not unheard of for me but on the high end. Well, that's all for now! Be well everyone!
Holly
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