Posted by Spriggy on March 26, 2005, at 19:11:18
Here is the worst part of having anxiety for me; how do I know if something is REALLY wrong or I am just wigging out from anxiety?Like right now.
I've had a good morning, felt fine. I'm sitting here watching a movie and WHAM.. I start feeling like my throat is starting to shut. LIke I can't get enough air. Then I start to feel like I can't swallow, then I focus on the swallowing thing and it gets worse. Then my thoughts race thinking I am having an allergic reaction or sudden asthma onset (yes, I know ridiculous), or maybe I am allergic to the Lamictal and I really am going to suffocate,e tc..
So I sit here trying to decide if I am either dying, having an allergic reaction, or just having anxiety hit me out of nowhere.
I start to think that if I am wrong and it's not just anxiety, I will end up dead on the floor.
OR, it is just anxiety and if I go to the hospital for treatment not knowing it's just anxiety, they will think I'm just a nut case again.
And here we go down this road for hours and hours and hours.
I hate this lump in the throat feeling. No matter how much water I drink or how much I swallow it won't disappear.And like a big, huge hypochondriac dork, I will sit here with an inhaler that doesn't even belong to me so I can use it in case I really do stop breathing.
I would likely even purchase an epipen for $100 if I could just to ease my crazy, racing mind.
it's ridiculous. I know.. trust me. I'm sick of myself.
poster:Spriggy
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