Posted by cache-monkey on March 22, 2005, at 3:18:55
In reply to Re: I'm tossing the trileptal » Sarah T., posted by Maxime on March 19, 2005, at 12:26:32
Dear Maxime,
It seems that you're convinced that psych meds do not hold any more promise for you. (Although Scott's amphetamine challenge might be an interesting thing to check out.)
You mention here your eating disorder. I've read in other threads that you're not getting over 500 calories/day. I've been through an eating disorder phase in my past. Much, _much_ more benign than what it seems that you and others suffer through. But there have been a few periods in which I was severely limiting my food intake. At those times, I noticed a definite effect on my mood. I became more depressed/anxious, and consequently started eating less. Kind of a viscious cycle.
For me it managed, very fortuitously, to resolve endogenously. I know others aren't so lucky. In any case, I wonder if it really might be worthwhile for you to try to aggressively deal with your eating disorder for the remainder of the year.
I'd imagine that this will be hard, and I'm not even sure how you would begin. But, we're all here to support you. And starting down the path toward healing might end up resolving some of your mental anquish.
Just something to consider.
Best,
cache-monkey> Thanks Sarah. After going on and coming off of over 40 meds I am a whiz at tapering. I knew which meds I can come off slowly and which meds I can stop cold turkey.
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> I wish I had never started taking meds. I have been depressed since my teens and I am not 36. I started taking meds when I was 25 or so.
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> I have an eating disorder which I should have been paying more attention to. If I had used all the money I have spent in the last 10 years or so on treatment then I would be better off.
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> I know I will not be alive in 2006. I will eventually succeed in taking my own life. It won't happen for many months but it will be before next year. This much I know is true. Then FINALLY I can be at peace.
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> > Maxime, I'm sorry that you're going through such a rough time now. I am in full agreement with you that these meds cause more problems than they're worth. I really do believe that, for many of us, the drugs make us worse than we were at baseline. I really wish I'd never taken anything. That doesn't mean I don't need an antidepressant, and it doesn't mean that the right medicine won't be available some day. It just means that the currently available meds are not right for me, and they're not right for many of us. If you do decide to get off of the meds you're on, please do it S-L-O-W-L-Y!!! If you get off the meds too quickly, you're likely to go into a rebound depression. Slow and steady is the way to go.
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