Posted by mmcconathy on March 21, 2005, at 23:44:15
I dont know what is happening next, i try to organize myself, but i screw up, put fake ego's, why cant i be stable to go where i want to.
I am superficial, i am not a person, i think this is not real.
Full of confidence, then a mental psychosis of panic, what is to come, i have made myself this.
No one likes me, i have an unstable, it hurts to not relate to others..... I put up confident fronts to cover for my deficits, you know i really am low, struggling, lost, i dont want to look at reality.
I WANT OUT!!! PLEASE! i dont want this, i want to a be something called a person, normal, i dont want this who i am.
I ask about medication all the time because im looking for something, something that will stable me, everything i do is oppressive, i dont mean to, it is my personality.
I want to get out but, but the way out is not the way i want out, going to a hospital, crazy! coo coo! goes on my record!
Asking for advice is useless, because i cannot apply it with this situation, but this frustrates and annoys people but they dont understand i listen, i do! but i think they think i blow them off.
Listen im sorry if i have frustrated you, my frutration is contagious, everone wants away from me.
Well i dont know what ask about medication for this situation, lithium, thorazine, i dont know.
Well i have got to go, im sorry if you feel repellled, its natuaral to me.
poster:mmcconathy
thread:473855
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