Posted by coplo on March 14, 2005, at 17:17:14
I have a problem regarding diagnosing what my condition really is. When I first doagnosed at 18, they said it was OCD (it was the first and only major obsessing episode i've ever had - debilitating fear of death and aging). Ever since I have been on one SSRI and another. For now I settled on Paxil or Luvox- they seem to work best.
Hwoever, 4 years later another doc said I had generalized anxiety disorder and that the OCD is just the tip of the iceberg of that.
Accordingly, I was put on klonopin, which I have had absolutely no problems with and it has changed my life anxiety wise.(i like to work with ppl and when i don't take it my extreme social anxiety makes me unable to function around people).
Interestigly enough I found out that since I take the Klonopin for anxiety the doses of SSRI's I take can be minimal (20 mg paxil every other day).
The reason I take the SSRi's still is b/c my ocd (if that's what it is) manifests itself by me talking really fast and loud if I don't take my SSRI, to a degree very anonoying to people around me. Howver if I stopped taking ssri alltogether and just took the klonopin, I don't believe I would have a major ocd episode...i would just be rambling and talking fast, jumping from subject to subject. It seems to me like the klonopin is taming down my ocd and there are periods of time (especially those when i want to be able to function sexually) when i just take the klonopin and no ssri and i do fine.
So my question is whether I truly have OCD, or whether since OCD is an anxiety disorder anyway- I just have generalized anxiety disorder (which could encopass social anxiety, general anxiety and OCD flare ups (when under extreme stress) if I don't take my klonopin.
Any comments appreciated.
Also, what sort of OCd is this, where if I don't take my ssri's I just have thoughts racing trough my head, talk fast and loud? Is that a mild OCD or just obsessive personality disorder which when my anxiety is not controlled can flare up into pathological OCD (like the one time I actually could not functions b/c of my obsessing about death/aging)?
thanks
poster:coplo
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