Posted by Kreedi on March 13, 2005, at 14:45:03
In reply to Re: Depression back -- boom! -- while still on Eff, posted by Maxime on March 12, 2005, at 12:51:57
Thanks. That helps. What makes this whole experience worse, of course, is that I've been anticipating and planning this trip for months. So a part of me feels bad for not enjoying myself; and for the amount of time and money "wasted."
I'm trying to be relatively good about the eating and sleeping. But my appetite is a chancy thing these days. And I'll go to sleep but often wake up at 5 am, with the all-too-familiar feelings of dread, anxiety, and crippling sadness.
I'm probably going to curtail my trip. I hate feeling this way and can't really be around people, feeling either that I'm acting a painful charade or that they're pitying me.
Not pessimistic, though, about the long term. I've been on a good path for a couple of years and I'm hopeful that this is a switch or blip.
Thanks again,
Kreedi> Hi. I know you are not bipolar but in bipolar illness there is something known as the "switch" . It was discovered Jean-Pierre Falret in the 1800's. There are some patients (myself included) who can go to bed in a depressed state and something happens in the brain and then in the morning one can wake up hypomanic. *The reverse can also happen.* And for some reason it happens at night while asleep (not to be confused with rapid cycling which happen while one is awake).
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> I am not saying that you are bipolar but maybe the "switch" happens to you sometimes. Travelling can really mess up a person's body. With me it messes up my menstrual cycle and other things.
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> Also some people react to change of seasons. We are getting close to spring and some people with mood disoders will react to that.
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> It really sounds like your hectic travelling schedule may be the culprit.
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> Look up Jean-Pierre Falret in Google and see what you come up with.
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> So I really think it's a "blip" you are going through. I hope so. :)
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> Take care of yourself and despite all the travelling you are doing try to keep yourself on the the same schedule in terms of eating and sleeping and it should help. Are you travelling through different time zones?
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> Maxime
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