Posted by jessers11581 on March 13, 2005, at 11:39:12
Lately, I've noticed that my resting heart rate is especially high (upwards of 90 beats per minute). It's odd to me because I'm in good shape and am not overweight. Along with this pulse increase, I've noticed the development of a ravenous appetite (often leading to binges), a lack of energy, the lack of will to do anything productive, trouble sleeping, and basically just a feeling of being completely out of control and disconnected from reality. I talk about all of this further in an above post labeled "Celexa". Is serotonin connected to heart rate, metabolism, etc.? Also, I still can't understand why this is happening to me when it totally seems that I am on a high enough dose of my medication to counteract it. 20 mgs. of Celexa used to make me feel great, and now 40 isn't enough? Is there some other outside factor that could be causing my serotonin levels to decrease? What on earth is going on here! I had a nervous breakdown last night and told my boyfriend that I'd been thinking a lot about suicide lately (which is true), and it turned into a terribly emotional, dramatic, and upsetting evening. I know that I have to do something--the question is, what? Do I need to increase the meds? Do I need to switch drugs? Do I need to change my diet? Aaaaggghhhh! It's like, I KNOW things have to change, but I have absolutely NO initiative to change them. It's like I just want to...stop. To give up. This really scares me. I almost feel like there is something non-psychological wrong with me, like candidiasis or cancer. What is causing this to happen? Why can't I get a grip?!
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