Posted by pretty_paints on March 13, 2005, at 4:08:01
In reply to Re: What am I suppose to do?, posted by SLS on March 12, 2005, at 20:23:27
I'm so sorry you're not doing well. I know what you mean about a high-functioning depressive. I know it wasn't supposed to be FUNNY but your post made me laugh. The bit about wearing underwear on your head. It's good you can still see what is funny to others, even tho you probably don't find it funny yourself! I used to be like that. I'd say something so-say ammusing, even tho I myself couldn't laugh about it.
I can't believe that you've completed a masters degree, whilst having two hospitalisations. That is amazing. I couldn't even bear to be at Uni right now. I don't know how you did it! What subject was it in? I'm v impressed!
Anyway, what are we going to do with you! We are going to get you well, YES!
Right, you said you have been on many medications. But don't worry, there will still be one that will work I am sure. You won't need to try ECT if you don't want to.
I know it's hard but just try and see if you can make it till tuesday. That sounds patronising, I don't mean it to. Just if you aim towards some particular date, it might help. Make sure your doc really understands this time about how bad you're feeling. Tell him you're suicidal and that you can't stand the way things are right now. Is there anything like a Crisis Team available (a group of people who come and visit you each day if things are getting really bad)?
I don't take a shower some days. It really seems like a huge ordeal. I think there are two ways things can go. Either you don't CARE enough to take a shower, like, "what's the point?", or you want to, but you just don't have the energy. Like, you CAN'T, rather than you don't want to. I usually am wanting to have a shower but just CAN'T. Even if I get myself in there, I'll just sit at the bottom of the shower with the water falling on my head, looking at my hairy legs that need shaving with not enough energy to actually SHAVE them. Ha ha ha.
So your meds are Trileptal and clonazapam. What is Trileptal? I'm assuming Clonazapam is a sedative? Like, diazepam or lorazepam? Do these help?
What do you take the Thorazine for? How does that help? Do you have psychotic symptoms at the moment, as part of the bipolar illness?
It's difficult for me to say "hey have you tried this?" and suggest medications, because you have been on so many. So I don't want to suggest things you've already tried. But maybe a different MAOI instead of parnate?
I think it's really great that you are doing volunteer work, and well done on the $25,000!! I admire you because there's no way I could do volunteer work at the mo. It just seems so difficult and big. Hopefully you will be able to make it along.
Right well I will send you a babblemail so we can have a chat, but I just thought I'd post here too. Haven't really made any suggestions have I? DOH. Just wanted to reply and say hi really. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ps: WOW, you speak French! I had fun decoding what you wrote, took me back to school! How come you replied in French to Maximus? Is he/she french?
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