Posted by Maxime on March 6, 2005, at 21:52:55
In reply to ok, im back on adderall/ i need someone to talk to, posted by mmcconathy on March 6, 2005, at 13:39:41
Matt, people offer their advice but you don't take it. So many people have told you to go into the hospital and get your meds sorted out and any substance abuse problems you may have taken care of as well. But you don't listen. Why? You keep asking for advice and then you don't listen so why should we keep giving you advice ... it's not going to change. In fact, I am going to save this post and simply copy and paste it every time you want advice.
And no, I do not dislike you (oh sh*t,was that a double negative?). Quite the opposite. I want you to get help because I care about you. We all do!
There is no shame in seeking help and going inpatient. If you do it now you won't get in any deeper than you are now. You can get better, feel better and move on. It won't be that easy but you can't do this on your own and you should be in a hospital.
Unless there are things you have taken that you have not told us on this forum, I highly doubt you have damaged anything in your brain. So stop worrying about that for now. You are bit of a hypochondriac at times. Do you realise that? (I guess that is like asking someone who is denial if they know they are in denial).
What are you biggest fears about going inpatient. Write them down. Tell us what they are. I bet we can address each and every one of those fears for you. Do you know how many times I have been inpatient? At least 10 times. Closer to 15 actually and that has only been in the last 8 years or so. But I have anorexia plus the bipolar disorder so that is why the number is on the high side (since I am only 36).
If I had received help early then I know I wouldn't be in the hell hole I am in now. So do it now!
Okay, I am waiting for any and all reasons you can think of for NOT going inpatient .... and I charge by the hour! So get to it!
Maxime
> My doctor but me back on adderall 40mg again, it helped, i was on trazadone, klonopin .5mg (4 X daily).
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> I held the bottle of Nembutal which was old, and stared, i wanted to but i kept pulling back, i realized what i am actally about to do. I put it back nice where i should be. But i still feel horrible.
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> Adderall doesnt seem to boost as it used to, and i have a very good hunch dopamine receptors where damaged, im not going to raise the dose no longer becusae it will do no good, by nuerons will level out with the dose and it will lose its effect.
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> What do i do? my receptors turned off? are they destroyed? are they broken? i feel bad that i did this, god i get my self in so much sh*t.
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> Even now, i took i've taken it and still i feel "dysphoria", what happned, what did i do? Do i have any dopamine left? i took d/l phenyalaline which supplies dopamine but it made me lightheaded and IRRTIBLE!
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> Please tell me what i should do
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