Posted by AMD on February 28, 2005, at 14:59:36
I went out /again/ last night, drank too much, and did about a gram of cocaine. I woke up this morning horrified -- right back to where you started, huh, amd? I feel so guilty, so irresponsible. I slept most of the day, and I still feel jittery.
Have I just upset my chemical balance -- and am going to be depressed for a long time again? Is the cocaine going to interfere permanently with my current drug regimen? (Lamictal and Celexa.) If not, how long before I feel normal again? (It's only been 14 hours since my last bump of coke, I suppose.)
Does cocaine cause brain damage in the way methamphetamines do?
Am I freaking out over one episode that, if I get myself help, it nothing to be overly worked up about?
Basically I just scared the hell out of myself. Two years. Two years I've taken to get back to this point, and what have I just done, thrown it all away?
Will my brain settle down again? Can I expect the Lamcital/Celexa combo to return to its regular efficacy in a resonable amount of time?
Thanks,
amd
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