Posted by AMD on February 24, 2005, at 14:32:32
Folks,
I've been doing so well in the past year with regard to my drinking and have completely abstained from cocaine use. (I used to have a mild habit.)
Well, last night I went out and broke down -- had a few drinks, and the next thing I knew I was searching out some cocaine. I found a little, did a little, but that was it. I slept in today and feel ... hmm. OK. My head is a little cloudy, but that may be the alcohol. My true worry is that by taking that little bit of cocaine I've "jumped started" my brain back into its depressive state. I suddenly remember the year of misery that my previous drug and alcohol use brought on ... did I just invite it back with this moment of weakness? Or is it perhaps the guilt that's truly making me feel bad?
I'm taking Celexa 80 mg and Lamictal 200 mg, and have been calm and happy for months.
To keep this on the topic of psycho-babble, the questions I have are:
1. Having done that last night, does this set me back to square one?
2. Are my meds going to stop working now?
3. Can I expect now that my cognition and memory will steadily degrade?
Thanks,
amd
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