Posted by mmcconathy on February 22, 2005, at 20:18:16
In reply to BP is different in everyone, posted by ST on February 22, 2005, at 3:01:29
That day i calmed down eventually, bit man that was true "run", i have alot of explain about these symotoms
Suddenly i will be in a phase, sort of delirum state, i have a fear that im on the vurge of thinking people on Television are talking to me, i will start to see things fun, a rush of ideas of what horrible things could go wrong with my mind, like im slowly deterioating (nueron-wise), and this could get to my head and actually happen!!!, i will lose my cognitive abilies, my whole perception of reality, which i think is happening right now which is why im panic!!!
, but that what ever stimulation phase it calmed down in about a couple hours, it was better than any kind of stimulant, but i had trouble focusing on what im doing, so many ideas for me to conquer i had to do it all! I did have sort of "semi-delsusions" as if i imagined i was a conquerer, and felt power from simulating it. But i got really unstable last night after it was over thinking again negitive thoughts there's something wrong with my mind, there is abnormality, and im going to drift in to oblivion!! insanity!!! no! i dont want it to happen!
those rope briges (like indiana jones movies) and im walking across feeling it rock back and forth, praying that it will stay stable, this is almost everyday, fearing that i will start having misperceptions, this is why i constanly moniter myself, god, like i have to have security camereas everywhere inside to make sure im ok, i never have a feeling of complete mental stableness. When the brige flips, i will experience disconnection from reality, and have misperceptions nad go delirious. But its almost as if i plan disaster, why would i do this! dumbass!
I wish i had a complete knowing that im ok, i have no problems, i want all this to go away!!! i want relief, i want calmness, i want some sanity!!!
I make people irrtible talking about this, my psychologsit, my mom, so i will go on no more,
Can a SPECT scan be beneficial at all, i hear it is not used much, but i dont know if it can be effective for BI-POL, psyhotic readings,
Will Zyrexa be beneficial, Thorazine, i hate to put a plug on it but its got to stop until i know what to do.
God bless, and you stay well.
M
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