Posted by Enigma on February 7, 2005, at 12:13:22
I have severe depression with the standard depression symptoms. Just got back to work after a 3 month short term disability leave. Now I'm wondering if I need to go on long term.
Lately I've been feeling afraid, or uncomfortable with leaving the house. I want to hide in bed all day, and sometimes don't even want to talk to my family.
I wouldn't call it fear, but I just don't want to be around people, and I especially dread going to work.
Is that social anxiety or just part of my depression? I don't remember feeling this uncomfortable with leaving the house before.
I don't hate my job (I think) but I just don't want to go there. I feel like there's anything I'd rather do than be there.
What am I afriad of?
When I do go to work, I'm usually not too bad and have no problem talking to people, going out to lunch with a group, etc.Anyone else have a form of depression that comes and goes as often as one day intervals. I'm never really happy, but some days I can get to work, but other days are like today - I'm home 'sick'. I missed out on a big superbowl party due to my illness as well. Was pissed about that. I just couldn't see myself there. Funny thing is, when I'm in a good mood (rare), I'm usually the life of the party. Go figure.
I'm taking Wellbutrin 450mg mainly for energy, Risperdal for mania and depression (isn't working too well, but used to work ok), and I just started prozac for the 3rd or 4th time. Been on the 'zac for 1 week and I feel no different. I hope it kicks in. It just has to or my employment is gonna be at risk.
I get anxiety attacks lately.. constant worry I'm going to lose my job, my house, etc. which I take Ativan for. I only started getting the anxiety when it was time to go back to work. The threat of losing my job is real. If I go on long term disability, there's a change they'll fill my position and I'll be left out in the cold. I'm currently totally incapable of handling the stress of a new job - the interview process, meeting new people, having to learn a ton of new stuff, etc. Assuming I could get through an interview and 'the' job.
OK, now I'm rambling...
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