Posted by reefer on February 3, 2005, at 5:14:01
In reply to Why don't I just die?, posted by Maxime on February 1, 2005, at 11:28:57
Actually i came to the same conclusion but then again i didn't really wanna die. So what i did was starting myself on Buprenorphine a partial opiod agonist/antagonist. I've tried a lot of meds also and since my doc wont prescribe me Buprenorphine i just buy Subutex 8 mg pills from opiate addicts on the street for $15 a pill which lasts me around 7 - 14 days. I use it by the nasal route, have to be careful here not taking to much before you learn how much to take. Note that a 8 mg Subutex pill is the same as 40 Temgesic 0.2 mg tablets. So one tablet equals about 40 doses for me. I dont develop tolerance to it but when i feel the dose doesn't do much i just take a brake for 2 - 3 days and feel like sh*t until the drug holiday is over and i get on it again. It has come to the point were i dont really care if the doc prescribes it or if i get it myself. I still dont wanna do full opioid agonists cause of the rapid tolerance development and sedation they cause. Buprenorphine is the ONLY thing i've ever tried that actually works long term and only gives mild withdrawals(compared to the benzo i'm tapering off) when stopped. My life isn't by any means perfect now or even near that but at least i go out and have fun with my friends and i'm running my own company which is going pretty well at the moment. Somehow it takes a lot of fear away and this makes me work better. The fear would be best described as a combo of depression and anxiety. And also if i would become addicted i wont be treted as a heroin addict. Rather they would just treat me as someone addicted to medications which is far more accepted. At least where i live. So if you wanna go last resort i can strongly recommend Bupe. I'm still trying different other medicine combos with my doctor, so if i find something that works i'll get off the Bupe. Until then i just dont care.. I'll stay on what keeps me feeling well.
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