Posted by mmcconathy on February 2, 2005, at 21:35:21
In reply to Re: i dont know if im going to make it, posted by ed_uk on February 1, 2005, at 11:51:42
Im really disturbed over this.
At times i feel my thougts lose their connections, its just like "goo" no realtion, maybe my brain is just a pile of unstructured goo.
Why did this happen to me, why did have to happen, why why hwy why!
Okk, this is what happened, i at times use delusions of self-importance many times to make up for insecurites, i have horrible self-esteem i have had to find something to make up for this.
I did this over a period of years.
I have used "images" in my head that i project myself as, instead of thinking of me.
THese are the following similar projections:
http://www.madonnashots.com/plow3.jpg (projection of authority)http://www.madonnashots.com/wgpre18.jpg
http://www.madonnashots.com/laprem01.jpg
http://www.madonnashots.com/islcov18.jpg
(projection of superiority)http://www.madonnashots.com/war05.jpg http://www.madonnashots.com/war01.jpg
http://www.madonnashots.com/lab6.jpg
(projection of charisma)Yes, i've always been diffrent, this is the defence i used for in-adequacy. But there delusions which i belive may have emerged psychotic symptoms.
Its embarrasing but, you guys dont know me, so this is my dark secret.
I guess just post back your opionion, positive or negitive....
Matt
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