Posted by TommyIsland on January 27, 2005, at 2:22:03
It seems that all my years of depression and anxiety and problems are all the result of my "self monitored social status." When I feel confident I feel better and of coarse my mood is improved. I suffer from Obsessive thoughts that focus upon the constant evaluation of my personality and social standing. I am deathly afraid of not being confident and it has haunted me since the onset of my problems years ago around the age of 15. I am now 28 and suffering more than ever. I was a very very outgoing 15 year old with one major downfall personality trait: I wanted to be liked by everybody and did whatever it took to win over somebody who I felt didn't like or care for me to much or not at all. This obsession lead to a sort of paranoia which progressed into a downward spiral of obsession. For me: to be confident everyday and to not have to think about it or analyze it upon every social encounter of the day would literally be a cure for me. However, my world is the opposite of my dream because I live every second of my day evaluating my personality which leads to terrible self esteem and poor self confidence. I am currently taking 150 MG of Effexor XR and I have a prescription of Klonazapan for when I need it at .25 MG a pill. I very rarely use the Klonazapan. I also have a prescription for Wellbutrin but I have not taken it yet because I'm afraid I will have an adverse reaction. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Has anybody received any benefit from taking Wellbutrin by itself or along with Effexor Xr for the treatment of what I'm describing..........I guess you could call it SAD? Can anybody offer me advice on any med that has worked effectively to block out the obsessions and keep me in more of a relaxed state where I won't obsess about my personality and social performace 24 hours a day? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you,
Tommy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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