Posted by banga on January 23, 2005, at 15:57:07
In reply to Re: adverse rxn to klonopin?? » banga, posted by ed_uk on January 23, 2005, at 12:28:12
Hi Ed,
No, I haven't tried any of the other meds you mentioned. In truth, this trial of Klonopin is the only true trial of a benzo, as neither Ativan nor Xanax were taken consistently; I in fact keep forgetting I tried them at all. I just don't know. I am scared, because I think in the back of my mind I always thought "well there's always benzos if the anxiety becomes dangerous"....and now there is a hint that my body might hate them.I am indeed taking desipramine. Too early for positive effects, but I seem to have more energy and my vision feels sharper. I don't think it makes me feel keyed up. I am hopeful about this one.
Oh and I still take 200mg lamictal, I think it is totally useless now.Today, two days off Klonopin and feeling a bit better--meaning I feel very depressed but am not crying. I see my pdoc tomorrow, I think there should at least be a discussion re: MAOIs
Oh! and the Geodon--these are symptoms I developed: sort of Parkinsonian feeling with my eyes--I could move them around and feel OK< but if I needed to make longer eye contact with someone, I couldòt do it-my eyes compulsively would twitch to the right, then I could have eye contact longer, then it would happen again.
I felt good, but agitated and pressured. Anxiety was gone, but approx. 8th week I quickly slid down into an odd state of being both agitated and yet paralyzed by anxiety, meaning I was too fearful (of nothing in particular) to get out of bed.
Risperidone did the same for my anxiety--BOOM it is simply gone. That was in the hospital, I would never have considered an AP on my own. That is why I keep longongly looking at the APs for relief of anxiety--SO dramatic and within 4 days.Do try to hang in there and finish school. I am only working part-time, but I know I would do better if I was busier, working on some kind of goal. Oh yeah there is the dissertation, but that is lonely busiess. If I had the money,I would take classes to get myself more among other people, even if I dont talk to them.
Push forward with what you are studying now, and start researching what related fields you may be happier with. Don't they do career, personality and interests testing there? It certainly isn't a life-changer necessarily, but it can help organize thoughts about career.
It makes me think back sadly how this anxiety has kept me back in life: I too wanted to go premed, but feared I could not take the pressure. I could have gone to any U in the US, my father would have paid, but instead I lived at home and went to a local college, too nervous to think going across the country where I know noone. Yes, I made it into a doctoral program, but it's been a struggle, I was supposed to finish 6 years ago....Anyway, I will bring up the idea of trying other benzos with my pdoc, as well as MAOIs. And Geodon vs Abilify. I may have to take one of these for the short-term goal of meeting my dissertation deadline, if nothing else...
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