Posted by Sebastian on December 23, 2004, at 9:08:33
In reply to Locked Up, posted by ed_uk on December 23, 2004, at 8:03:07
Its not a nice thought. Like being in jail, I guess. I think all wards are locked? Not as bad as jail, but the front door is not wide open. Took me a while to find the way out at my second hospital, a bunch of back doors. The front do did not open from inside, I think. Couldn't get outside, the patio had a very tall fence in front of it. The first ward I did not find a way out, but I was so out of it on meds that I probably would have never found it anyways. My memories are very weird/funny/non-existent from the time I was starting meds, ECT. They realy didn't seem real. Like dream like state where I was on a OD of LSD. Nothing made sence, and I didn't and still don't know what was real, or just a dream. I have found one dream from that time that I proved to be reality. I guess as I progressed through treatment I became more aware of what was real and what was not, atleast in curent times. I still try to decifer what went on at the begining of my treatment. The 3rd hospital I'm prety sure was locked up tight. Unless on a feild trip. I hate all those hospital memories. I have since then wished to go back, and even be locked up for real. Never happened.
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