Posted by pretty_paints on December 13, 2004, at 17:12:23
In reply to Re: Body Dysmorphic Disorder » pretty_paints, posted by ed_uk on December 13, 2004, at 11:03:41
I don't really know. If I'm honest, I think if I was allowed another year out I would probably prefer that. It just depends on whether they offer me that, I dunno. I've only been there one term, and they've given me nearly two years out. So I don't know how much they'll want to invest in a person who they've only spent a little time with.
I'd rather take more time because, even if I'm better, there are different levels of "being better". Cambridge was stressy enough to make even a "normal" person crazy! I'd need to be 110% if I was to go back in that environment. The years that my illness began manifesting itself were the years that I was studying like a maniac in. You kind of sacrifice your mental health to get good grades. I would love to do something I dunno, where I would have a life etc, but my mental health came first. I feel like if I went back to Cambridge at the moment, "achieving" would become more important and I might fall ill again. And the thing is, I didnt realise I was ill the first time around, so I might not realise again the next time around. And I don't want to end up in a similar mess again.
Woooh, Katie, stop writing! Sorry about the epilogue over a simple "when are you going back to Uni" question! hehe. Hope you are alright Ed. Keep posting. xx
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