Posted by lostforwards on December 11, 2004, at 21:51:44
In reply to The presence, posted by linkadge on December 11, 2004, at 20:09:27
Linkadge!...sorry I've seen so many posts ( that and I think your name is stuck in my head ). I haven't bugged you so I'm doing it now. I also didn't have much to say before.
here's some puke... I'm not sure how relavent or helpful it'll be.
I haven't experienced exactly what you described....Though something similar has happened after my bizzare experience on too "high" dose of AP. ( dramatic drop in dopamine to the point of physical akinesia symptoms. including dry mouth. ) You know the story.
Along with the waning physical symptoms, I've started noticing my body more. I started hearing my own voice more. I can make out the details in my parents language ( never picked it up but I sort of had a feel for it, couldn't speak it. ), and I am suddenly able to pick out different lines in music a lot better BUT I lost some of the feeling which is a HUGE disappointment. What's weirder is I can write it better. It was like I lost a bit of intensity to gain a bit more awareness. I'm not sure if that makes any sense. I feel so awkwardly aware of my body now. In fact I don't even know what's wrong with me but it's weird. Blah blah blah..sorry for the rant.
Everything feels a little more third person. I attribute the change to effects on dopamine. I think my paranoia issue has something to do with filtering information out. When I was on shrooms ( serotonergic ) I became sane and much more aware in a similar way. The day after going off was total bliss. My paranoia had disappeared, everything was gone, and I felt so different. It didn't take long for my brain to go back though. Maybe I should try 5-htp.
Funny that low serotonin levels are connected with impulsive ( I interpret as less aware ) aggression. Yes? no? I heard it's true. Maybe this third person stuff has something to do with the ratio of dopamine and serotonin. That's my far fetched hypothesis.
That's all I know.
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