Posted by crazychickuk on November 12, 2004, at 7:31:59
In reply to Re: I cant't cope, posted by ed_uk on November 12, 2004, at 7:13:56
Thanks for the reply's
Well i stopped the zispin as the soltabs i couldnt get on with... these past 3 mnths with no meds have been hell i am a nervous wreck the slightest noise freaks me out, i cant go outside the door its like a barrier and i am so depressed got no motivation .. if i go bk to the doc they will just like offer me more meds and i am afraid to take them as i feel they are just making me worse.. effexor gave me anxiety ssri's gave me panick attacks and zispin has now given me depression.. i cant go into hospital, weird people i got my daughter and i rather be alone sometimes i guess..Shall i go bk to effexor i have it here in the cupboard i dunt know what to do.. the doc only gave it to me cus i was obsessed it will reverse my brain back to where it was when i first started on it before i abused it (wasnt anxious then till i abused it:@)
ok any imput i want to get better i cant handle this dream state any more..
thanks
heres a list of all meds i have had
effexor - was first for mild depression (abused it got anxiety)i only abused it cu i was mild depressed i felt normal just my freinds were all raving with extasy o i thought i want to be high to and took to many effexor's (no e's) then thats when i had my first panick attck along with parnoia etc..
cipramil/celexa - sever panick attacks
zoloft - doc had to take me of as it raised my bp and hrt rate so did prozac and seroxat (made me numb also)-sp docs said no more ssri'strazadone- gave me such a panick reaction my hrt was so slow
tca such as dothiapin - my hrt was fluttering badly
reboxatine/edronax-only took it for one day as i was afraid of it ?
fluanxol-was given it to try but didnt take it cus i was also afraid of that too
zispin/remeron- was on for nearly 2 yrs was gr8 for anxiety it slowed me down somewhat from being hyper to kind of mellow started to poop out on me was gonna change dose frm 30-60 BUT i then found out they changed to soltab i started soltab BUT i started having nightmares and my depression gotreally bad...
valium- sort of ok i suppose but i still can get very anxious wheni am on it (they wont give nothing else here in the uk well in my town anyways)
I HAVE NO BEEN DX WITH ANXIETY/PANICK DISORDER AND DEPRESSION
SO i stopped all meds alltogether been med free for 3 mnths but i am a nervous wreck, i am so depressed got no motivation ... and am afraid of taking any meds cus of what they are gona do to me, i feel like my mind is dying, is t his normal for depression? i dont get excited no more not even hyper like i used to chat like a chatterbox on and on and on i used to do peoples heads in NOW i am like hi then walk past sometimes i cant be bothered to say hi i just like smile maybe, i used to wait for my freind to walk to school with in the morning (mydaughter for school) but i dont anymore.. i hate picking my daughter up as soon as i get to the school my heart is like palpitaing and i feel all week and dizzy as if i am gonna pass out :-S I have had loads of tests theres nowt wrong with me and cus i cant focus my anxiety on anything around me or my hrt or my leg or wat eva its all going to my mind.. and thats wat is scaring me.. will meds be the answer? i am losing hope and control of everything i cant focus concentrate nothing.. anyone else? is there hope? is there a med? plse advice
thankyou
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