Posted by rainy on November 9, 2004, at 14:12:02
In reply to Re: can't stop thinking -Larry H. help? » rainy, posted by headachequeen on November 9, 2004, at 12:55:09
Thank you guys. I'm over the anger--I was where you are now shortly after it happened, but it's been not quite two months and I can't hold to being mad that long. I don't know why I was so apprehensive and cringing--I didn't behave that way in the office, nor did I take the klonopin I sorely wanted to.
The receptionist nodded stiffly and then scurried into another room when she saw me standing at the window to announce myself. I alluded to the incident during the pdoc visit (where in she refused to rx serzone, even though it's legally available from Canada and is the only AD that's really worked for me) but Ms. pdoc didn't want to talk about it. She did assure me that there is no mention of it in my record (but did not have the letter I had requested absolving me of the crime on hand.) She admitted that she herself had altered the scripts and would be more careful in the future.
I practiced diplomatic skills and came out rather well, I must say. I did not tell her what I wanted. Instead, I said things like, What do you think of...? Are you comfortable with...? (No to that one) Isn't this a symptom of..? Not intimidating at all. Pdoc's voice got stronger and stronger.
As I paid, O.M. came back into the little room and I greeted her with a smile and a "How are you?" She took a deep breath and sort of glared and tight smiled at me and replied "Fine" as if her gall stones were hurting a lot. If I weren't a feminist, I might have thought that she is plagued by PMS today, or her meds need to be adjusted. My husband suggests that she's mad at me because I ratted on her to the doc and she got hollered at herself, although the latter is unlikey. Maybe she's on probation?
Anyway, it's over, I go back in a month to see how I'm doing on 400 mg of wellbutrin (start that dose today--this medicine woman doesn't mess around with gradual) 200 provigil, divided dose, 300 Topamax, and 100 trazodone.On another note: It occurs to me that we've been talking about body image and stuff. Some of you whose taste for soft drinks hasn't been killed by Topamax might be opting for the diet brew. Ralph Walton (my ex pdoc, btw, before we moved) has published some studies that you can read on medline, I think, that indicate aspartane makes depression worse.
Just a heads up. He didn't ask me so I didn't tell him that I was drinking pints of it every day. Maybe the ADs would have worked better had I known.
Thanks again for your support.
relieved rainy
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