Posted by crazychickuk on November 1, 2004, at 16:46:41
Hi, for people who dont know me heres a short story.. dx with anxiety/panick disorder and mild depression cus of the anxiety
Started with mild depression then as if every ssri etc i have had just added more probs.. over the past 4 yrs i have had effexor was gr8 for depressopm but gave me anxiety, then celexe, zoloft paxil etc ssri's just didnt do nowt for me.. then i had reboxatine, fluanxol, did nowt, and i was on remeron 30mg for over a yr the manufacturer changed from normal tablet form to soltab which i didnt get on with cus i started getting nightmares etc so i had to stop right away few days later i was giving dothiapin only took it for 1 week cus i was getting bad hrt flutters, well i was ok for 1 further week, so no meds work for me? now 3 mnths later with no meds at all i am feeling really weirdly strange as if i got brain damage some how, i am severly depressed worst ever ya know heres all my symptoms:-
hot and cold sweats,
constant headache from neck to forhead, goes when taking ibrupafen,
agitation,
weird dreams,
constant fog,
cant control things in my mind,
no energy,
very fatigued,
thirsty,
NUMB,
no emotions,
cant concentrate, takes me ages to read,
I am finding it very hard to cry sometimes,
i cant even push myself to do things,sad,
cant laugh,
dont care about anything,
cant bring myself to go to the doctors? wats the point-more meds,
unreality, SEVERE
everyone looks weird to me, even my mum and daughter :-(
got no room for my daughter :-(
some suicidal thoughts, not severe, (sometimes)
weak minded cant handle any bad news,
feels like i am on drugs basiclly? my brain feels like its dying...
obsessing over choking all the time? constantly thinking theres something wrong with me and i cant use my cbt to control it cus my mind is like blocking things..
keep biting my tongue? my therapist reckons its cus i am thinking about things all the time and i am thinking about my tongue thats why i do it?
ummm feels like i am really ill basiclly 3 mnths after being on no meds? i see an ocupational therapist every wednesday, but i dont have the energy or mental power kind of thing to do anything.. everything seems useless... i aint here.. o plse help wat can i do? mmy gut feeling is that the ad's has messed my brain up... what could be wrong with me? i am scared i really am, i aint living my life i am just exsisting... anyone else ever experienced this? plse help
thanks for reading
poster:crazychickuk
thread:410227
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20041029/msgs/410227.html