Posted by lostforwards on October 29, 2004, at 23:45:06
I might as well get all my fears out( It's impossible to get a hold of the doctor anyway and given the circumstances I don't think they'd tell me. ) Have you read my other post about how weirdly I was being treated?
The key is: If I was VERY sensitive to the APs and was running VERY VERY fast. As in, I had extermely high dopamine levels by default for whatever reason I don't know, and the doctors wouldn't tell me.
Strange?
Then could they give me the AP in the night..leave me with normal discontinuation problems like insomnia and termors, regular parkinsonian. They leave me like that for a month then get me into hospital again ( this time for the drug-induced insomnia seriously ) give me the AP in the morning ( up to 3mg Risperdal for just about 2 weeks, lower dosage for the other 2 weeks ) with another medication with anticholinergenic effects ( a low dose Nozinan ) to to sleep at night.
Now I have lack of arm swing and insomnia, but besides the lack of arm swing have no other symptoms of parkinsonian. My mind does go completely blank and I feel very driveless etc. but none of the rigidity signs of parkinsonian.
Is there any way at all they could've permanently changed me by exploiting my sensitivity to the drugs and my naturally high dopamine levels?
( there was something weird going on... I want to know if I'll be in mellow blank minded driveless hell forever or if it'll really subside )
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