Posted by utopizen on September 29, 2004, at 18:19:27
In reply to Dexedrine Spanuals Vs Adderall vs Ritalin, posted by geno on September 29, 2004, at 17:33:07
If you want to know what people are honestly thinking after you wrote this-- and I say not to criticize your meds or you in any way but am saying this out of concern for your well-being-- your dose may be a wee bit high.
If you want to know what others are thinking of your writing, (or at least me) it's this: you are less than coherent, to say things mildly. You are writing excessively, and presume may even be talking a bit around your friends, too.
Amphetamine psychosis is a very serious problem, and it doesn't seem immediately likely to you that you have it. Only qualified medical experts may determine such a thing. I went in the hospital over it myself, and I was just like you-- wrote excessively about meds, talked to my doc a lot about my meds- etc. But I didn't have "psychotic episodes" or hallucinations per say. But I later realize now, after visiting a mental hospital, that I did in fact have amphetamine psychosis.
First, my advice is to do what I did, and get off the stuff you're on and go on something tamer like Ritalin and lower that to half of whatever you have convinced yourself is "effective" and take that.
Don't worry. If a stimulant doesn't "work" or is "effective" for you in your mind, just accept that you're not Superman and be content with the fact that ADHD doesn't permit you to live as a super hero.
I accept this, although it took me a while to. We're smart, I know, so we all think we need to be super heros despite our severe attention deficits, but the reality is that WILL drive us insane.
Second, call your doc so he can arrange to admit you to the nearest psychiatric hospital he have privileges to send you. I did it. There's no shame in this. It in the long run, it'll help you. Put aside your immediate responsibilities. You owe yourself the relief.
I only say this because I want to be honest, and not pretend as though your post doesn't concern me about your well being (like I'm sure many posters would, and I'm sure these posters will "correct me" and such, but I wish someone told me the honest truth of what was on their minds all along before it was too late).
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