Posted by Bubblehead on September 29, 2004, at 14:46:49
In reply to Re: Effexor -tapering Q, posted by AIK on September 29, 2004, at 7:48:03
Thank you AIK for being so sweet. I'm doing okay. I really shouldn't have even wrote that. I'm so embarassed. No one needs to worry about me. There are others who need more concern than I do. I just have issues with anger. Unfortunatly, through my upbringing I learned that anger is not allowed. Due to this, I have somehow learned to turn the anger in upon myself. Which leads to, yep you guessed it, suicide. I punish myself for being angry. Pretty strange huh? The Effexor helped this problem but not in the way it should have. At 450mg I was in what I like to call "The Effexor Coma." Like a coma, I could not feel things like emotions and I could not express them. I know they were in there but there was something blocking them (the Effexor). I left my Doctor and started tapering the Effexor about 3 months ago. I went very slowly and I did well...until I took my last half a capsule. That was two weeks ago tomorrow. What a nightmare. I feel for each and every person who is going through withdrawl symptoms. I've never had to experience any type of withdrawl before this. I don't know how actual drug addicts do it. I used to be so mean thoughted about addicts going through withdrawl thinking that they deserved it. Now, my heart even goes out to them. No one desrves this.
Any how, I am gradually day by day getting better. I do have a support family through my church. Thank God for them. Somedays are just a bit harder than others and I apologize for that. I really shouldn't have put that in that post. That is information that people really don't want to see or hear.
Again, thank you. You are such a sweetheart for being so concerned.
Kelly
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