Posted by prodgirl on September 29, 2004, at 14:45:08
In reply to Running out of options and meds to try!!!!!!!Lex, posted by elainen on September 29, 2004, at 13:35:45
I, too, have been on the cocktail roller coaster. Started off with Lexapro, then Effexor, until my pdoc saw me extremely hypo and dx BPI. Because of work, I am lucky to see her once every two months (which is not helping to get the right meds).
The agitated depression/mixed state is all over the place. My hypos have evened out, much to my chagrin, but my lows are extremely low. I called my pdoc this morning telling her it is time to change again.
It is so frustrating, and I must constantly remind myself to hang in there. I don't have much support, my family lives on the east coast, me on the west. They don't get it at all, think it's a phase and the LA way to dx everything as a psychological disorder. I feel like a burden to my best friend, who hasn't yet broken under the emotional strain, which I worry about every day, since he is all I have.
Someday, we will find the right combo. My pdoc told me that I will never get better, but will find a way to manage this. I just want to get to the point where I wake up and not dread going somewhere and finding out that this is a really bad day, to know what it feels like to not be afraid and embarrassed. More like the dawn of a good day ahead of me, at least a string.
Sorry to turn this into a real downer.
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