Posted by iris2 on September 28, 2004, at 14:41:34
In reply to Re: Thanks all - I'm done. » jerrympls, posted by Nohope on September 28, 2004, at 7:38:02
Jerry,
I agree with Nohope. We cannot keep holding on to dreams of long ago. What our illnesses have taken from us is over. One has to be forward looking. Sometimes for me, and I am a lot of the time extrememly depressed that means simply living in the moment. Not dreaming of some life which in my depression is giong to be unattainable. If you think about it a person that is not depressed would become very depressed if he always dreamed of a life he could not possibly provide for himself. Many people have for instance no education (like me due to my illness) anyway, if they constantly hammered at themselves for not having a degree and hence a better paying job and of course with this a different life style they would be depressed. But many many people work every day at a minimum wage, are forward looking but take into account their limitations and are very happy. I was just trying to use an analogy here.
I have been where you are. It is hard to see any light out of the darkness I know.
I see that a lot of people are suggesting medication changes and changing your pdoc. It does seem like what you are taking is not working and although I have not read every post people seem to think you need to change doctors. I know that just changing doctors is not that easy. Is theer anyone you know that can help you? I think I read where you liked your therapist? Perhaps he/she can make a suggestion?
By the way if you do not think you are benefiting from taking this leave from work are you able to go back? If it is making your depression feel worse perhaps you should try to if you are able to just go back? If you are not able thats fine of course. Speak with your therapist about it. He/she knows you better.
Where do you live? Are your finances okay to find another doctor? Do you have insurance? If you cannot find anyone there perhaps I can try to find a doctor for you over the internet or if I know where you live I could call a university around you. I know doing these tasks might seem overwheming to you. But finding a new doctor is should maybe be the top priority of things for you to occomplish.
Let me know what I can do.
Warmest thoughts out to you. Things are going to get better and life will have purpose and joy once again.
irene
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