Posted by alesta on September 13, 2004, at 12:52:18
as if things couldn't get any worse, i woke this morning to hear my boyfriend crying uncontrollably. he told me that he hasn't paid the mortgage in 3 months and that we are going to lose the house. he is our sole economic support right now, and his business is failing, he blows all of the money on drugs. i don't know what to do...i have to start a new job soon, but my car has broken down...he was going to get it repaired for me, as he drove it himself also, but now i see that that is not going to happen. i have no money for anything..so i can't buy the antianxiety meds i need or even food or basic necessities. i look like a skeleton practically right now..i'm afraid of where i'm going to end up..i don't see much hope right now..except to ask for prayers..the more the better..*please*..just please say a quick and heartfelt prayer for me..and things are awful between my boyfriend and i, too, but i don't think i could abandon him..oh, god, why? why does bad stuff always happen to me..it never gets any better..ever..i don't care if i'm happy anymore..i just want to live a life without fear..(i've lived in constant fear for the last 13 years)..that's all i want..and a roof over my head..people who've known me have no idea what i've gone through..they think i've got it made and i just think "if they only knew."
amy
poster:alesta
thread:390304
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