Posted by PhoenixGirl on September 8, 2004, at 16:50:29
I don't know exactly which board this post belongs on, because it's kind of a blend of medical and social.
It's like, I want to want sex, but I don't really. I'm only 26, but I've had depression since I was 12. I had a strong libido until about half-way through college. I had taken libido-killing antidepressants, and struggled to get off them. Now I'm taking Wellbutrin and a small dose of Klonopin. I thought going off the other antidepressants would help, but my libido is still low.
Maybe it's the depression itself. But even in times when I feel sort-of okay, and I'm not acutely suffering, my libido is still missing. I want to have a sex life. Sex is an important part of your identity. Especially at my age.
My days are fraught with worry and sadness and frustration. I have brief times of actually feeling good, but most of the time I feel pain or flatness. I've often felt that I'm an elderly woman in a 26-year-old body, after all the hell I've been through. I can't say I feel excited or fired-up about much of anything.
I just feel a deep sense of loss and incompleteness because of my lack of libido.
poster:PhoenixGirl
thread:388209
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