Posted by justjustine on July 14, 2004, at 10:06:51
In reply to Re: ex-effexor, 6 mo. out, posted by crazychickuk on July 14, 2004, at 6:04:42
i don't know what to do. i swear i wasn't like this, it's like i've become a sociopath.
i'm trying to get back into therapy. i've got a new therapist to start seeing friday, and a new doc next week. i'm afraid if i tell them the truth they either won't want to see me, or will want to put me on more drugs that will just make me weirder.
i'm in a county mental health plan, and i'm only supposed to see the pdoc every 3 months - how is that going to work?
i started taking wellbutrin (75mg 2x a day) about 4 weeks ago - i had it from a few years back. it helps, but i also think some times it swaps out anger for depression? i'm worried the docs will be mad at me for just starting myself on it. in january when i came off effexor, only vicodin would help, and my primary care physician and i got into it over my "drug-seeking behavior" so i never went back to her. i only took the vicodin for a month then stopped, no problem.
now i'm dependent on xanax and probably klonopin, which i'm taking daily.
i keep getting in fights with my family, friends, etc. i'm trying to keep things together, but i feel like i'm losing... i'm also not working because i'm a teacher and there's no work in the summer, so i've been taking a class, but now that's over too. i plan on volunteering and living with very, very little until school starts and i can start substituting again.
i'm afraid!
> O my god... same thing happened to me 3/4 yrs ago when i finished effexor it gave me anxiety though and i picked up guys and then dumped them.... i didnt have the black hole then though i kind of know how you feel cus i have had the black hold lately.. it isnt nice.. are you in therapy and do you take any meds now? all i can say is live life to the full.. lifes to precious..
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