Posted by Angel Girl on July 5, 2004, at 22:05:30
I'm BPII and I have to admit that I *really* miss my hypomanic episodes. Due to meds I'm on, I haven't had one since autumn 2001.
bad - I spent waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much money and took risks that I normally wouldn't. I can't afford (no pun intended) to go through that again.
good - For once in my life I felt *happy*. I enjoyed life.
Now I'm left with no joy or happiness in my life and I so desperately want that back. OTOH, I can't get myself into MAJOR debt again and doing risky things.
Why can't I have both? Why do I have to give up the joy and happiness to gain *control* back in my life.
I'm soooooooooooo tired of feeling depressed all the time and nothing seems to help with that.
A saddened and discouraged AG
poster:Angel Girl
thread:363324
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