Posted by headachequeen on June 16, 2004, at 16:18:44
In reply to Re: Has topomax helped, posted by bridgey1128 on June 16, 2004, at 15:23:00
> I'll stick with it girl because I know you have been through it all! ;) thanks
And you will get there... just take your time... do not rush it... and be confident about yourself... that is our problem, isn't it <s>
and when you need someone to talk with... well, you know where to find me...And remember too, in those days when the cognitive skills are kicking in (and for those of you whose hair on back of neck is beginning to rise, Bridgey and I have been through a lot together, we know that the best way to get through it is with laughter and a sense of humour and the odd joke... if we lose that sense of humour then EVERYTHING is lost...and we can and do joke with each other... I am a Gael; that which is most important we treat with humour..)
that the secret is to progress slowly...
no sudden increases...
25 mg increases in the evening until half the maximum increase is achieved, then start the same climb in the mornings until the entire maximum increase is achieved and it seems to work all right...Now if I could find a way to turn off the mind that actually works for ME and sleep at night...
I am not depressed at the moment although I think I shall soon slide into a deep dark hole if I do not sleep and sleep properly...I am doing all the things they tell me to do...
I get up in the morning by nine o'clock... some days I am up even earlier...I am walking a lot as usual... and still shooting pool and doing the agility and tracking, am doing scales and arpeggios and the breathing exercises and all the rest of it and ask any singer who works at it if that is not exercise....
I am working at writing and am turning out some reasonable stuff again... instead of sitting back and saying that until I get myself together I cannot work the way I was doing before...
I am planning on going back to take the next level of that wild and woolly through the brambles and briars and barbed wire and culverts and mud and whatever else presents course...
I am in short being extremely positive...
so why am I not sleeping at night?
Around eleven I am so tired I can barely make it up the stairs to bed. I fall into bed and into sleep, then by one o'clock I am awake and That,as Jonathon John said, is THAT... I am awake and cannot sleep until somewhere around six or seven when I am supposed to be awake and doing things so that I do not fall into depression....
wish I had a switch that I could turn or press that would turn off the brain and make it stop spinning and rehashing things...
it would be so much easier....
kat
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