Posted by AMD on June 4, 2004, at 14:47:55
Well, I stopped my Trileptal a few days ago, and last night I was already in the midst of a major mixed episode -- my mind is racing, I'm depressed, I can't concentrate, I am in pure hell.
Is this going to repair itself? Has anyone ever been here, unable to focus, extremely agitated, feeling stupid and unable to read, no motivation to the go the gym... I want to die.
So I started the Trileptal this morning, 600 mg again, and I am hoping a lower dose will lift my depression, stop my mania, and not cause me to lose my memory.
(Yesterday, for example, three days off the medicine, I couldn't remember by old address! Scary!)
1. Does Trileptal memory loss get progressively worse? Does this side effect fade? Is it reversible, or are these memories gone for good?
2. Are there any success stories out there of highly motivated, successful people overcoming a bipolar diagnosis and living intellectual, academic style lives? I swear, I feel like my /capacity/ to learn has been washed away. It makes me so sad, that my life is gone, my hopes and wishes gone, the pure joy of learning and being able to read and understand gone. Will I ever get this back?
I need to hear some good things ... I am so lost.
amd
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