Posted by blever on May 30, 2004, at 22:03:58
just wondering if anyone could offer some advice. im diagnosed bipolarII, and unofficially AD/HD. my doc says its absolutly necessary for me to be on a mood stabalizer along with my paxil cr(25mg), because sometimes im a rapid cycler. I HATE MOOD STABALIZERS, BEYOND DESCRIPTION. the only one i've tried (depakote, only 500 mg, and i only gave it a week) brought on the one of the worst depressions i've ever experienced. my pdoc then prescribed me lamictal, but i never took it. this was two months ago. since then, i've been rapid-cycling, although the crashes are not nearly as intense as they were before i started the depakote. (there have been a couple breif exceptions in the past 2 months, but they always pass). i've been manic/hypomanic alot lately - and i love that. rarely, i do have this horrible depressed, hyper-hyper ennergy, though.
i feel real lost, i guess. im tired of the chaotic mood swings - but i hate my blank, zombie-like self on mood stabalizers. people are confused by my ever-changing personality. sometimes i can't even muster a smile; other sometimes i'll be on a joke-cracking rampage.
i think im addicted to the highs. im not sure that i have a question, but if anyone can relate, and impart some advice, i'd REALLY APPRICIATE IT.
thanks lots, blever
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