Posted by 1980Monroe on May 15, 2004, at 1:45:11
Hello everyone, well to explain, i stopped doing illegal drugs especially with cocaine. But still i am in a way dependent on presrciption medication. I take Dexedrine, Miltown (after xanax failed), and Wellbutrin.
Personally let you know, havent given one sign to my doctor of this slight problem, i dont WANT him to know. Let me explain, i have ADHD to a moderate-severe degree, im too spacey (really dangerous especially on the freeway) i swear i cant organize things well in general, scheduel, documents, and have many airhead attacks and stunts during the day. When im not on medication, my mood is generally unstable, i dont even want to rerember my life before medication, it was horrible.
When doing simple tasks, i often dont do a effiecient job, it just seems overwhelming to me, unmedicated.
My social skills......... dont ask, all i can say is they are bad, im not responsive sometimes to social interactions, this has always prevented my from peers, throught school and soo on, this may me linked to ADHD, and some issues during childhood. All these personal problems really was overwhelming, disorganized thinking, isolation, and already present dysphoric episodes i belive mainly just a reaction to how i function.
The Dexedrine does help, in a good way, my paperwork wouldnt even be existing if i didnt take it. But sometimes i take more than what its is prescribed, mainly becasue of a feeling of well-being. Usally the dose i take is about 50mg which im only prescribed 30mg. At this dose it does act as an antidepressant, my thinking is more positive, my baseline personality is pure pessimism. I usally do it to cope with problems when i am overwhelmed which i easily do.
I take Miltown for anxiety when needed, i went through a round of benzo's they didnt really work well. Tried trazadone, too many side effects, and paxil which caused irrtiblity. I usally take it when im about to have stress breakdown, i took xanax for a while, but i had a opposite anxiety reaction with it. I do sometimes depend on it because it eases inner friction and make eases some things, but still i shouldnt stay on it, and i know ill have to go off.
I know dependency is defiently not a good issue, im know im not addicted, i could stop both of them, i can handle that, but i many bad moods would comeback, and ofcourse my disorganized thinking.
I need your advice, Does anyone have an opinion on how i can tell this to my doctor? or just give me some advice.
Thanks for your time.
poster:1980Monroe
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