Posted by jerrympls on May 6, 2004, at 23:48:33
In reply to Re: Resistant Depression, posted by harryp on May 6, 2004, at 23:35:51
> > I have treatment resistant depression. Been on everything....and now I'm sinking. Effexor 375, Concerta, Seroquel, Ambien, Valium...I'm numb and just don't care. What scares me is that I'm gaining the courage needed to actually end my life.
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> For starters, anyone would feel horrible on that cocktail! That's not your fault!
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> This is what I do: I give myself five years--if it doesn't get better, at least I know there's an endpoint.
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> So far, it's always gotten better--a lot sooner than I expected, usually.
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> You need better care. Whatever doctor put you on that combo needs to be replaced and quickly. Going to a decent hospital would probably be the best thing to do right now.
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> I promise you you will feel better once you get those drugs out of your system. If you haven't yet tried a MAOI, now is the time. If you have, do it again with a higher dose and lithium. In the meantime, I suggest trying ECT. It is the most effective treatment for depression known.
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> Just don't give up, okay? Depression is something you can fight, and as long as you keep getting up, sooner or later you'll beat it down.Hi Harry-
I've been fighting depression for about 12 years now. I am 32. My 20's were lost...are lost. I've been on everything - MAOI's, TC, Combos, cocktails, opiates, stimulants, ECT, I was even a research participant in the Vegal Nerve Stimulator tests (I had it removed Aug. 2003). I've been on novel meds, anti-psychotics - you name it. I've been in therapy, hospitals - everything. My friends stopped calling/emailing last year. Parents don't want to hear about it. I have nothing to look forward to - nor do I have the desire to. I'm working so hard each day just to get up...this is not life...it's hell. It's about time I get a break and get to retire in heaven. NO worries.....I'm not gonna kill myself now.Help me Obi Won Kenobi....you're my only hope......
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