Posted by seeknsolace on May 3, 2004, at 6:01:27
In reply to Re: please be civil » Dr. Bob, posted by chemist on May 3, 2004, at 3:10:59
hey chemist, just seeing if you're doing alright, your posting time was 3 something am. I'm not sure what time zone your in or what time zone this board is set for. Seeing the time reminded me of the good old days of NOT SLEEPING. Before I knew I was bipolar/depressed.. just a few yrs ago. I had insomnia for 2 freakin yrs. I would wake every 15 mins to half hour, fully awake and alert. And that was waking to panick attacks and crying bouts, just to wear myself out then would go back to sleep.. fun times I tell ya! I didnt know that I was so ill, I thought it was just me.. how I am, tho I woke in tears with cause.. heartache.. (dam men!) I do know the heartache only manifested the root of the problem.
I went thru therapy to learn to sleep, to learn to love myself enough to relax and allow myself to sleep.. just took alot of strength to do this. Now, even still being bipolar, I dont suffer any more from insomnia. I look at the clock and tell myself I'm gonna sleep because I dont wanna feel like crap.. feel like I once felt. I dont know where your at, but hope you can get something out of this. Most of the time, I cant even stay awake during a nine o'clock movie!
Today is day 2 of being on 5-htp, woke with more mental clarity, still sick tho.. took some otc medicine last night, use to cause me to go into anxiety mode, but it didnt, so maybe getting better.
If I'm annoying anyone with writing too much.. good, I'm just gonna write even more! ;) I am a woman after all :P
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