Posted by ramsea on April 26, 2004, at 13:53:55
In reply to McPac other UK people Were are you/how many?, posted by TheOutsider on April 23, 2004, at 10:51:29
After 20 yrs of inappropriate and counterproductive treatment which worsened my condition and ruined my career (which 40-plus means hardluck), narly cost my life andfamily too---I have at last a NHS pdoc--two of them, one mane, one female--who are right up to the minute in their research and knowledge. I am trying to get my life back now. It's true I am more stable, and the meds are mostly right I think, but I am on disability, have lost all my friends, my career prospects are nil (used to be professional) and the meds jave done a number on my appearance. I'm crying as I write this, this has been such a traumatic experience, so degrading, so humiliating. I feel I have been treated as a criminal, staff have said abusive things, I can't begin to tell you what a dehumanizing experience this has been. And for why such punishments and unfriendliness and unhelpfulnes? Because I suffer from Bipolar 1 disorder, with ADD traits, and rapid cycling. A disease I have had I believe from childhood. All along the way. Life has been an exhausting battle to appear normal and "good". Really wonder why I even bothered. Guess for my family--I do loe them so much and they have unconditionally accepted me. As I do them. But I have no lie outside my house, and that is weird for me---the traveller, the bold, bolshie, colorful arty sort of person---hahha, everything is different now,
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