Posted by shadows721 on April 14, 2004, at 23:32:00
In reply to really need some support, please, posted by rainee on April 11, 2004, at 19:46:52
I am so sorry that you are going through a really rough time. I totally can relate to your depressive feelings. When I went into the hospital, I felt like I lost my mind. I had a hard time putting together thoughts. I couldn't hardly feed myself. I couldn't even have the concentration of dialing a phone. I too asked Jesus to just take me. I felt like I just couldn't function anymore. Then, I would switch into hellish rages. I couldn't even stand for someone to be talking or laughing around me.
I got put on additional meds. My lexapro and Buspar was increased. Neurontin and Serquel were added. I tried lamictal too. The Serquel really helps me sleep, which is so important. I rather sleep that not sleep for days at a time like I use too.
Rainee, please don't give up. We have to hold onto each other's strength to get through this hellish disease called depression. It really sounds like you need some medication additions and adjustments. The other posts are giving really good suggestions for new medication management. Just do you best at any given moment. Don't be hard on yourself. You are going through a really rough time here. Recognize anything you are able to do for yourself right now that is positive. It may be as simple as just getting dressed, eating a meal, or brushing your teeth. Just those basic things are milestones to handle with major depression. Look at what you are doing for yourself to keep yourself safe right now. Write it down if you can. Try and fight every negative thing that you notice you say about yourself. Just keep saying I am doing my best and that's all I can do.
Sometimes we can not communicate with words the level of pain we are in on the forum. Remember, you have many people who care about you right here. No one is wanting you to suffer my friend. We all care about you Rainee. We are all in this together. Throwing a rope to Rainee ----X-------X--------X
From the shadows
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