Posted by katia on April 5, 2004, at 23:38:37
In reply to Re: OCD or BP?, posted by jdgjdg on April 5, 2004, at 21:56:44
Yes, you make perfect sense. I don't really experience that though. I can see how one could get stuck in that spiral tho'. To me, it's the anxiety that would make the thoughts go round and round, feeling like I was not in control, but being controlled and caged by this tormenting thought/song...The more I could let go and not let it torment me, the less it would become. We're prisoners to the fear of something controlling/caging us. I think that's a big part of it. And so then you do something to alleviate it - enter in the compulsion side.
For me it's more about noise. I feel caged and induces anxiety when I'm stuck listening to unpleasant sounds. or a wierd one is when people jitter or shake their legs. it's been murder being a student. I'm surrounded by people shaking their legs during class. I can't explain it, but it drives me insane. I remember the first time it bothered me when I was 11 in a classroom and a big boy next to me shook his leg sooo fast all the time it drove me mad. And since then I can't take it (I'm 33!). It induces anger, intolerance, a feeling of being caged and subjected to torture. perhaps it's too stimulating for me? I dunno. it's very odd indeed. Who knows. it could be some unconscious association w/ a trauma that happened for me at that time - although I don't remember what the trauma is?!
I just figured I had a touch of OCD to have such a wierd making crazy thing like shaking legs!
Katia
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