Posted by snapper on April 5, 2004, at 21:52:22
In reply to Re: MAOI'S /ECT/ ATYPICAL DEP.Please read (kinda long) » snapper, posted by jay on April 5, 2004, at 20:45:28
Hi Jay, thanks for your response. I have tried several AP's in the past. I have tried a couple of the TCA's, and do not wish to go back to them because they dry you out and I have a pretty hard time as it is with the whole cholinergic thing any how!! in 1991, the second or third med I was put on was Doxepin and it sedated me and made me fatter and then I awoke one morning feeling "better than normal" a little hypo-mania!! and I thought at the time... hey! I feel great! This must be what it feels like to feel 'normal'I stupidly cut short the med and thought "I was Cured" went back to drinking cuz I Felt so good! God, what a frustrating cycle!! Little did I know. Back in those days , I was Very Psych drug naive! I litterally thought that they would -fix my "faulty chemistry" -lol! I even reinstated 2 or 3 maybe 4 other times to no avail! It is also not that I am so upset about the labels, it is just so hard trying to find a combo that I can live with its' S/E's.
Mood stabilizers-?- tried them all and either did very little or nothing at all. One of the biggest problems is that my head is just like one big pressure cooker! I am just now 3 days away from completely D/C'ing Lamictal, because it was causing pretty intense aches and pains in my mucsles and neck and shoulders as well as causing headaches which did not help the 'head thing'.I think it may have been helping a little with my mood and some of my cognition etc, but I had to cut it short. I would love to fire my p-doc but being on SSDI does'nt give me a lot of options at the moment-he's a really 'nice guy' and genuinely seems intent upon trying to help me, and even offered to see if I wanted to check w/another doc or neurologist to see if we were missing anything, I said I have already seen 2 out of the 3 docs in the Mental Health Clinic -( the other one I was seeing referred me to him !!) and given my "history of "MI" that there probably was'nt anything being "missed". maybe I am wrong- its' almost like I wish I could find something "wrong" so it could be fixed. Had catscan and eeg- and everything was ok - Still would like to have an MRI. I have given most all of the Major Psych Meds, a fair shake over the last 14 years- excl. Serzone- which is probably a mute point anyhow. Hence his statement that he did'nt have anyhting more to really offer me. I know that he probably just laughs to him self when I go to see him-thinking oh great here comes "neurotic me"! I have been hospitalized 7 or 8 different times and none of them really did any good ( perhaps with the exception of the one visit for 2 weeks last fall when I seemed almost intent upon doing myself in, and part of the reason my dep. and anxiety got so much more intense is that I was tring to go of off all meds to see what would happen.The doc and I figured lets see what will happen-let me tell you, I went off of effexor 1st then tried to slowly go off of klonopin and I think it should maybe have been the other way around like keep FXR in place then DC the K. I do know that the time that I was off of Klonopin I don't remember a time of more intense worsening of depression/anxiety and SI!) The meds deal is just a crapshoot-I did have some -semi-normal time in the midst of all this hell, just nothing that was very life affirming! I have even been "addicted to adderall" which is probably the most helpful thing next to the Parnate that I have ever been on, however I slowly but surely found out that it was just making my symptoms more mixed and aggravated my underlying soft BP II symptoms! Who knows, maybe I am just doomed to live this way the rest of my days!!
Thanks for your reply-any other ideas - I am open-
but like I said , my present pdoc seems to think I am just expecting too much out of the meds!!
thanks again
Snapper
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