Posted by LyndaK on April 2, 2004, at 1:24:19
In reply to Re: I would like to know too, same problem here!, posted by snapper on April 1, 2004, at 0:53:11
Clint,
I know what you're saying 'cause I've been there. Didn't do the alcohol-thing, but chronic depression definitely tears your life apart. If I had owned my own business I would've gone under. I managed to hold on to my job throughout the whole thing, but I was lucky enough to work with a very supportive group of people with a supportive supervisor who I was able to be completely honest with about what was going on, but I was "out sick" a lot. I thought I would never have a "normal" life again. Then my doc decided to try me on Remeron. Within 6 months my life had significantly changed, and at this point I can say that my life is "normal" again. I have a full range of emotional response back again. Whatever it is that Remeron does in my brain, it was just the right thing. Of course, on this board I only talk about the meds, but in reality there was a lot of therapy and a lot of prayer going on too. All I know is, you can't give up. You've gotta keep trying. With medication there is ALWAYS a trade-off. There were some meds whose side-effects were as dysfunctional as the depression -- that was not an acceptable trade-off. I guess, when it comes right down to it, I would accept being a little heavier if it meant maintaining the level of emotional wellness I now have (I think it was really good for me to write this all out 'cause it clarified it for me a little more). I was diagnosed 10 years ago. I've been well for about a year and a half now. It's a long haul. It gets discouraging (hopelessly so sometimes), but you've gotta keep on. If you're not getting therapeutic support, get it. It's an important part of treatment. I hope you can find the "magic pill" (for some it's a magic combo). Whatever you do, keep trying.Lynda
> Lynda you are probably right in re to alot of those aspects. I became depressed while I was skinny as a rail and it just worsened when the depression did'nt get better. Save for the time I got hypo-manic on parnate for 8 or 9 months I created a fabulously successful business-then I self medicated with alcohol and the parnate pooped out and I started self destructing so to speak and eventually lost everything - because my depression became so chronic and I just could'nt hold it together any more! SSDI sucks!!
> I yearn and ache for my old life :(---
> I am not giving up hope yet though. I still somehow have a belief that somehow some way my brain can and will heal!!! Did'nt get sick over night-and def. won't get well overnight!!!
> talk to ya
> Clint
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